Time

Everyone wants a simple life, I believe. It is when life becomes too simple that it becomes a burden.

I feel much more worn out with not much to do with my time than when I had so much to do with not so much time. So many things have happened all at once. I lost my job, summer session has ended, and I am in a new single bedroom apartment--amongst other personal issues that I'm debating whether to post or not. This is the type of situation that has blog written all over it. But it is too much, I don't think I have the capacity to type in every detail... I may spread things out evenly over the next few days/week.

I start a new day shift job Tuesday, so at least some of the pain is only temporary. One thing I don't mind about being a temp is that I don't have to put too much effort into finding a new place of employment. This may come off as being lazy to some, and indeed is about 35% laziness on my part, but lets keep in mind that Ive been going to school full time over the summer, and with physics being a 4.5 credit hour course, I needed to see to it that I achieved a quasi-reasonable grade. My goal at the beginning of the semester was A--that's what my goal is for every class--but things don't always work out the way we want them too--losing a job, needing to find a new place to live, laundry, fixing the car, females, can all be pretty distracting. I should find out my grade sometime next week. Its eating me inside. I was right on the fence between B+ and A- when I took the last exam, I feel I did A'ish on the last exam....we'll see.

Needless to say, hopefully, that I didn't have too much time to worry about finding a new job. School first, work second.

About the job though, Ive learned that you can't have the joy of finding a new job without the loss of another. I wasn't too heartbroken about loosing my previous job. It was a good job though, I worked hard, and I got a lot of exercise. I may have gained some muscle mass and shed some tummy fat. It was just a little bit too much muscle work and not enough brain work for me. I found myself daydreaming about different things... what I was going to do that weekend, physics, how cute that girl in physics class is... shit! that 250psi pneumatic RF welder came a little too close to smashing/frying my fingers!.... Why am I wearing steel toe boots?

That is all behind me now. With summer classes done, I'm working days now. I'm pretty excited about the new job. I like meeting new people, I just don't like most of them after a few months or so, at most. I like the new job experiences too, learning new things. The last job I learned to drive a forklift. I'll probably miss that aspect the most. Forklifts are fun.

How long will I have this job? I don't know. The uncertainty is breathtakingly exciting!....for now.

I haven't had to much of an appetite lately. I've been force feeding myself, which I never like to do, but my stomach has been yelling at me, so I had to shut it up with a PB&J. Its still complaining though. It wants more. It's just going to have to wait.